I do not know what future hold for me. It is scary, I am being honest here. It is normal to be afraid, right? We, human feel afraid of unknowns.
I am terrified. What will happen to me? Who will I be? Where will be my ‘home’? Where will I end up to? With whom?
Since early this year, I was quite ‘close’ to this one person. Instead of feeling closer, all I think about is when will the last time we gonna talk to each other, whats gonna be our last conversation’s is all about. Deep down I realise, all I did these past months is planning my own escape to somewhere, beyond reach.
I even procrastinate my anger, sadness and in this case, rant.
Friends thought I am such a laidback person, rarely got angry. They do not know I am just too lazy to do that. So, PMS or not, I dont have one.
I AM TOO LAZY TO HAVE PMS.
I frequently flying in/out of KL twice every month but I rarely look out ober the small window due to my uncomfortable feeling towards altitude/height. I am not sure if I have acrophobia, yet to be discovered.
First time I really look over the sky was few days ago, enroute from KL to Kuala Terengganu via Malindo Air. These was the view from 10A seat on that 5pm flight. The flight was delayed for half an hour due to the bad weather in Subang airport.