I feel so numb.
I am not that happy…

And not that sad either.





Konnichiwa! こんにちは!

Bonjour! Salut!

안녕 ! Annyoung!!

nǐ hǎo ! 你好!

Such a long time, right?

Since dont have thing to rant about.

Nope. Just too lazy to rant on.

I am a professional procrastinator.

I even procrastinate my anger, sadness and in this case, rant.

Friends thought I am such a laidback person, rarely got angry. They do not know I am just too lazy to do that. So, PMS or not, I dont have one.



Woww… A sky bridge. Eh no, bridge by the clouds.
It was like heaven usually in Hollywood movies



Long time, babes…

I… Hmm… Do not have reason for my M.I.A. I just got lazy and lost.
I just celebrated my birthday almost a month ago and I have totally no idea what to do with my life. Nah, I just feel that I am losing something somewhere in the middle of the road, and it is not even past first quarter of the year. I just hope the rest of my year is sailing smooth.

Boyfriend? None. It is not that I do not want one, heck I dream a blissful marriage in future, but… I can not afford for another heartbreak and I am running out of tears to accompany that. I am not cold- numb- shitless person but I am building wall to guard myself up. It is different between wanting and chasing the one you love. I might love someone and want him, but I will not chase him. No more.

Future? I do have one. It is full of beautiful things and infinite loves. I might stumble here and there but I believe Allah will be my guidance throughout the way, the best Planner of all. I believe I am going to where I am supposed to be. I have lost a friend already and yes, selfishly speaking, I feel nothing. All I care about is my own happiness. You want to talk to me, you come to talk to me. You want to ignore me, I am not losing anything. I do not owe my happiness to anyone. I am the one responsible for my happiness. Not you. And no one else.

Allah is the BEST planner.

Everything happens at the right time with the right person for the best reason. I want to have faith in that. And I want to have faith in my ownself. I might not totally 100%-ly love myself yet but I am going that way now. Please bear with me.
All I need is good words from all, positive vibes and endlessly loves.

Pray for me.


While I am writing this, I am alone ‘makan angin’ dalam feeder bus, journey from SkyPark to MRT Kwasa Sentral. Alone aku memang alone weyh…. Aku sekoq2 je dalam bas ni. Biasa nya turun flight aku terus book grabcar but today decide nak try betapa ‘efficient’ nya public transport yang digembur-gemburkan. Berpeluh gak la ketiak tunggu bas kat bus stop sebab paneih. Sebab kete dok parking depan bus stop, bas-bas macam problem nak stop. Aku dah la katik, nasib baik driver T804 ni alert, nampak lambaian kasihsayang aku.

MRT Kwasa Sentral
Lengang… Parking boleh 4kali melintang. Setiap petak satu tayar pun boleh.

Dengan berbekalkan backpack, aku serius nampak macam pelancong! Pelagi… Acah-acahla. MRT Kwasa Sentral to MRT Mutiara Damansara is RM2.60. Ada one staff yang assist from the start how to buy the train token, siap camne nak tekan mesin beli tu. Kahkahkah. Sedia small changes sebab coins, RM1 and RM5 je mesin tu nak. Memilih! Hahhahahaa…

Token RM2.60
Udah sampei train nya…. Wuhuu…

Tak Ain la kalau tak sesat… Well, aku salah kuar gate Mutiara Damansara, so kena bertapaklah sikit ke feeder bus yang akan ke Damansara Perdana->Bukit Lanjan. Bas perantara ni akan lalu betui-betui depan umah aku. So, bagusla… Korang mesti tengah impress kan camne aku boleh tau? Cmne aku yang lahir cemerkap ni tau info berguna ni? Mestilah ada petua iaitu JANGAN SEGAN BERTANYA. 

So, sekarang aku dalam feeder bus T810 untuk ke umah aku. Ecehhh, macam khas untuk aku plak. Mestilah sebab aku sekoq2 je ni. Kata nya bas ni akan gerak every 15minutes. So, lagi 15minit aku kena tunggu, bertapa dalam bas. Naseb aircond. Kalo tak, berkari ketiak.

MRT Kwasa ke Mutiara around 7minit! Eh…Xiumin…Hi!

SkyPark -> MRT Kwasa Sentral: RM1

MRT K.Sentral->MRT M.Damansara : RM2.60

MRT -> MyLoft,D.Perdana : RM1


Total journey : ~1 hour

Sekian, laporan pelancong tak bertauliah.

One day I wish I will wake up from my sleep, pack my stuffs and leave…



Maybe, on that day, I will follow my heart and run straight to you.